Life lately/thoughts
Life lately!
We are almost to the 7 month mark but we’ve had quite a few things going on so I thought I’d post an update!! We just got home this afternoon from the babies first overnight stay at a hotel and it was a success. Unfortunately the circumstances that lead to the overnight were not the best (we had a celebration of life for a family friends wife, gone too soon.) we felt it was important we show up and were told to bring the babies so we made the trip. It was about 3 1/2 hrs one way. The babies did great in the car on the way down and we were able to check into our room early. Once they realized we had triplets they offered us the executive suite with no up-charge! It was a huge two room suite and it was perfect. The babies were able to sleep in their own area and slept really well. We had three pack n plays and brought a swing with just in case of a middle of the night emergency :-) Samuel has
been a bit crabby lately and waking up a few times throughout the nights so we just weren’t sure. I think he’s working on some teeth!! He woke up a few times but was pretty easy to put back down! I’d say overall the first road trip was a success!
Tom, Molly and I went to the state fair on Friday. Tom was lucky enough to get a day off (his first weekday off ALL summer!) so we took advantage and went to the fair. Molly was a complete angel!!! We kept joking that it felt like we didn’t even have one baby with. She sat so nicely in the stroller, napped and was just so perfect. Meanwhile my mom and aunt stayed with the boys! They had fun too. It was so nice to get out and be with just tom and have special time with Molls!
So, I’ve been feeling a little off lately and I’ve been trying to figure out exactly what it is and why I’ve been feeling the way I have. I’m honestly not sure if it’s like a late case of PPD or just feelings catching up to me. I feel like for the last 3-4 years, everything around me and all I’ve done has been relayed to pregnancy and being a mom. From getting pregnant, trying to stay pregnant, to fertility land, grieving from miscarriages, gaining hope and then grieving again, then finally getting our take home babies— that along the way I’ve lost who I really am. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE being a mom and I am so thankful for the journey we took to get here- but I stopped the other day and realized I am not sure who I really am outside all of that. I sometimes have conversations with Tom at the end of the day and realize I have nothing to say except for what the babies did, how their appointment was, what their schedule was like, etc.
Maybe this is something all moms go through but realizing it has been really... (I’m not even sure what the right word is, honestly) I’ll just say weird. This weekend whileIn the car Tom and I brainstormed some hobbies or things I might be able to do to start having my own sense of a life back. I know it won’t be like my old life before kids and that’s ok! I really don’t want that life back because I truly am in love with my life now- but I do want to start figuring out how who I am fits into my new life. And truthfully I’m a little nervous because I’m not sure what that looks like. I worked for years at a job that I feel I outgrew way before I left it- so for me the idea of going back to work isn’t something I’m super excited about. But maybe it’s time for me to find a part time job or start a new hobby. I guess I’m just going to be more open minded with stuff and look for new things to get myself into! It’s kind of scary putting this out there for people to read but I feel like it’s real and this blog is for me to look back on and it’s not just the highlight reel, this is the real deal, and the real deal is messy and complicated sometimes.
Aside from that, we are just enjoying our last few days of summer before school starts back up! For us that means we won’t have Charli, my cousins daughter with us twice a week. She’s been with us M and T all summer and it’s been fun having her! The babies will miss her. Samuel has an appointment for his kidney in October and I am anxious for that. He’s been making HUGE improvements with his neck and his physical therapy, right now we are working on him sitting up on his own!! We are also going to start solid foods again in September! Elliott has been getting some pears and prunes mixed in with oatmeal in order to help his constipation issues, so far not much luck.. sigh. All three are rolling all over and we officially cannot leave them and find them in the same spot! We are going to be setting up gates pretty soon! Life with these three is surely an adventure; every step of the way :-)
We are almost to the 7 month mark but we’ve had quite a few things going on so I thought I’d post an update!! We just got home this afternoon from the babies first overnight stay at a hotel and it was a success. Unfortunately the circumstances that lead to the overnight were not the best (we had a celebration of life for a family friends wife, gone too soon.) we felt it was important we show up and were told to bring the babies so we made the trip. It was about 3 1/2 hrs one way. The babies did great in the car on the way down and we were able to check into our room early. Once they realized we had triplets they offered us the executive suite with no up-charge! It was a huge two room suite and it was perfect. The babies were able to sleep in their own area and slept really well. We had three pack n plays and brought a swing with just in case of a middle of the night emergency :-) Samuel has
been a bit crabby lately and waking up a few times throughout the nights so we just weren’t sure. I think he’s working on some teeth!! He woke up a few times but was pretty easy to put back down! I’d say overall the first road trip was a success!
Tom, Molly and I went to the state fair on Friday. Tom was lucky enough to get a day off (his first weekday off ALL summer!) so we took advantage and went to the fair. Molly was a complete angel!!! We kept joking that it felt like we didn’t even have one baby with. She sat so nicely in the stroller, napped and was just so perfect. Meanwhile my mom and aunt stayed with the boys! They had fun too. It was so nice to get out and be with just tom and have special time with Molls!
So, I’ve been feeling a little off lately and I’ve been trying to figure out exactly what it is and why I’ve been feeling the way I have. I’m honestly not sure if it’s like a late case of PPD or just feelings catching up to me. I feel like for the last 3-4 years, everything around me and all I’ve done has been relayed to pregnancy and being a mom. From getting pregnant, trying to stay pregnant, to fertility land, grieving from miscarriages, gaining hope and then grieving again, then finally getting our take home babies— that along the way I’ve lost who I really am. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE being a mom and I am so thankful for the journey we took to get here- but I stopped the other day and realized I am not sure who I really am outside all of that. I sometimes have conversations with Tom at the end of the day and realize I have nothing to say except for what the babies did, how their appointment was, what their schedule was like, etc.
Maybe this is something all moms go through but realizing it has been really... (I’m not even sure what the right word is, honestly) I’ll just say weird. This weekend whileIn the car Tom and I brainstormed some hobbies or things I might be able to do to start having my own sense of a life back. I know it won’t be like my old life before kids and that’s ok! I really don’t want that life back because I truly am in love with my life now- but I do want to start figuring out how who I am fits into my new life. And truthfully I’m a little nervous because I’m not sure what that looks like. I worked for years at a job that I feel I outgrew way before I left it- so for me the idea of going back to work isn’t something I’m super excited about. But maybe it’s time for me to find a part time job or start a new hobby. I guess I’m just going to be more open minded with stuff and look for new things to get myself into! It’s kind of scary putting this out there for people to read but I feel like it’s real and this blog is for me to look back on and it’s not just the highlight reel, this is the real deal, and the real deal is messy and complicated sometimes.
Aside from that, we are just enjoying our last few days of summer before school starts back up! For us that means we won’t have Charli, my cousins daughter with us twice a week. She’s been with us M and T all summer and it’s been fun having her! The babies will miss her. Samuel has an appointment for his kidney in October and I am anxious for that. He’s been making HUGE improvements with his neck and his physical therapy, right now we are working on him sitting up on his own!! We are also going to start solid foods again in September! Elliott has been getting some pears and prunes mixed in with oatmeal in order to help his constipation issues, so far not much luck.. sigh. All three are rolling all over and we officially cannot leave them and find them in the same spot! We are going to be setting up gates pretty soon! Life with these three is surely an adventure; every step of the way :-)
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