Changes
Yesterday was such a good day. And really, nothing out of the ordinary happened. Actually, Tom and I got into a stupid fight via text (communication is hard 😂) and by the time he got home I had two crying babies, holding one of the criers while also making dinner. I think you can guess who the criers were! The boys keep me busy all day. But- this is my life. And I love it more than I could have ever imagined. It’s like I am living the dream I never even knew I had.
I never really dreamt about being a mom. Even the first time I got pregnant (4 years ago!!) it didn’t feel like a dream came true. Of course, our path to parenthood has been different- and by the time I got pregnant with these three I was certain I wanted them more than anything. But I never pictured myself being a “stay at home” mom. I never thought it would be possible and it’s not something I ever thought I wanted, anyways. I’ve learned to say “never say never” I quit my job about two weeks ago. It was scary but I am confident it was the right decision for our family. I am SO thankful for Toms hard work and our decisions that we’ve made in life prior to this that allows me to be able to stay home with the babies and not be stressed daily about finances.
Motherhood and my life now is soo much different than I pictured, but it’s so much better! It’s hard and I have days where I worry about the future, but I’ve been trying to live in the moment with these three. They are growing and changing right before my eyes. I look back at pictures of them in the NICU and I can’t believe how far they’ve come. Elliott is losing hair and Samuel is gaining his back! Molly has grown into the most beautiful baby, and I am just overcome with emotion sometimes remembering our journey. It’s kind of weird being on the other side of it all. I had times where I thought I’d never be here but here we are. It’s so hard to keep hope and faith alive in the hard times. I wasn’t always optimistic. I spent more time than I’d like to admit feeling sorry for myself.
I remember sitting in the hospital at 22 weeks in the bathtub singing you are my sunshine over and over while crying and begging them not to come. I remember at 34 weeks sitting in my bathtub at home crying begging them TO come ;) and then calling Tom to help me out of the tub. Ha! I look at their faces and I just see so much hope and life. When they smile up at me and I can tell they recognize me it makes me feel so proud. They are the miracles that we worked so hard for, and now I have the joy of spending all my days with them. Tom thinks I’m crazy when I say I miss them an hour after they go to bed, but I do. I definitely don’t want them to wake up, but I miss them.
I guess this is just a post of me reflecting on the last few months and being thankful. There are days I can’t believe God chose me to be a mom to these three, but it is the best, most rewarding job in the world. If you are going through the trenches of infertility, or any hardship really, just know that there’s others who have been there. I’m not saying it’s all going to work out exactly how you want it (i haaaated hearing that to be honest!) but just know you aren’t alone. ❤️ I never in a million years pictured or even wanted triplets, haha. But now that they are here I feel like this was the plan for us the whole time and we had to be patient and let God show us how to get there.
Sending hope and love to everyone reading this!
I never really dreamt about being a mom. Even the first time I got pregnant (4 years ago!!) it didn’t feel like a dream came true. Of course, our path to parenthood has been different- and by the time I got pregnant with these three I was certain I wanted them more than anything. But I never pictured myself being a “stay at home” mom. I never thought it would be possible and it’s not something I ever thought I wanted, anyways. I’ve learned to say “never say never” I quit my job about two weeks ago. It was scary but I am confident it was the right decision for our family. I am SO thankful for Toms hard work and our decisions that we’ve made in life prior to this that allows me to be able to stay home with the babies and not be stressed daily about finances.
Motherhood and my life now is soo much different than I pictured, but it’s so much better! It’s hard and I have days where I worry about the future, but I’ve been trying to live in the moment with these three. They are growing and changing right before my eyes. I look back at pictures of them in the NICU and I can’t believe how far they’ve come. Elliott is losing hair and Samuel is gaining his back! Molly has grown into the most beautiful baby, and I am just overcome with emotion sometimes remembering our journey. It’s kind of weird being on the other side of it all. I had times where I thought I’d never be here but here we are. It’s so hard to keep hope and faith alive in the hard times. I wasn’t always optimistic. I spent more time than I’d like to admit feeling sorry for myself.
I remember sitting in the hospital at 22 weeks in the bathtub singing you are my sunshine over and over while crying and begging them not to come. I remember at 34 weeks sitting in my bathtub at home crying begging them TO come ;) and then calling Tom to help me out of the tub. Ha! I look at their faces and I just see so much hope and life. When they smile up at me and I can tell they recognize me it makes me feel so proud. They are the miracles that we worked so hard for, and now I have the joy of spending all my days with them. Tom thinks I’m crazy when I say I miss them an hour after they go to bed, but I do. I definitely don’t want them to wake up, but I miss them.
I guess this is just a post of me reflecting on the last few months and being thankful. There are days I can’t believe God chose me to be a mom to these three, but it is the best, most rewarding job in the world. If you are going through the trenches of infertility, or any hardship really, just know that there’s others who have been there. I’m not saying it’s all going to work out exactly how you want it (i haaaated hearing that to be honest!) but just know you aren’t alone. ❤️ I never in a million years pictured or even wanted triplets, haha. But now that they are here I feel like this was the plan for us the whole time and we had to be patient and let God show us how to get there.
Sending hope and love to everyone reading this!
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